Real Grace

There’s been so much going on in my life lately on all levels.  My family and I just went through a major move and are still in transition.  We are getting settled but it’s taking a little time to get everything in order.  Unfortunately, this all takes away from my time to write here.  That’s not a real good thing either because I’m still dealing with layers of “stuff”.  I’ve been having nightmares again (just had another one the other night).  I am in the process of finding a new counselor but that is taking time.

So, here I am.  Kind of a mess but I’m here!  I am reaching out to my support system but it’s hard because they are all many hours (by car) away so a phone call has to suffice.  I’m realizing that I still need to learn how to totally and completely run to God and trust Him with my pain.  That’s one of the reasons why I’m a bit of a mess right now.  I still find that I have trust issues.

On the flip side of all this I do see progress.  If all this had happened 5 years ago, I may not be here right now.  The whole thing would have been completely overwhelming and sent me over the edge, I truly believe that.  So, I guess I’m not as much of a mess as I could be.

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