Real Grace

I received a card this week from my mother. I can only assume she received my letter so I was quite surprised when I received the card. It was a really nice card. It was so relevant. It did make me cry as I read it and I realized that my Mom has a really hard time articulating her feelings and this was her attempt at it. So, I decided to give her a call. I got her voicemail and left a message thanking her for the card and letting her know that I would love to sit down and chat with her. That was Monday or Tuesday of this past week. Today is Sunday and I have not received a return phone call yet.

I’m trying to be patient and not get angry. My first response tends to be if she knows our relationship needs work why isn’t she calling me. But, that would be a healthy response. I have to remember to accept things for what they are. If she calls me and is able to talk with me then that’s a bonus. Otherwise, the relationship stays the way it is. I didn’t send the letter to change the relationship. It was something I needed to do to deal with the anger. That has to remain my focus.

God is so faithful when I bring all of this too Him. He shows me my heart each and every time and helps me to keep it all in perspective. I’m so thankful for the emotional work I’ve been able to accomplish which has helped me to come to a place where I can hear His voice so much clearer. I know I would not be where I am today in my healing without Him! I praise Him for that today!