Real Grace

The letter to my mother is in the mail!  I still feel a level of relief.  I do wonder what response this might trigger from my mother but I feel I’m ready for this next step.  I’ve prayed so much about this and read this letter over so many times that I can almost recite it from memory.  This is not an easy step by any means.  No matter what the response I do feel it is a necessary step in my healing.

Some friends have disagreed or more accurately do not see the need for me to send this letter to my mother.  I get that.  I think unless they’ve walked exactly where I’ve walked, they can’t fully understand and know what each step of my healing should look like.  This letter completely articulates the pain I have suffered.  Unless this pain is acknowledged by my mother, healing can not take place in our relationship.  I feel this is the healthy step that is vital to our restoration.

There have been many friends who have been very supportive of my sending this letter.  They feel it is very powerful and may even cause a stirring in my mother.  As I said, no matter the result, I know that I need to do this.  It has been amazing to get this anger out and be able to put it into words and now be able to say, “Here Mom, this is what I’ve been trying to say to you for years.” Now, I’ll just wait to see what the future holds.